I am exactly the same. My Master has a lot of patience with me and at times i wish he would place more restrictions on me. I know i brake most of his rules tho... i'm not really sure why, insecure? Don't trust Master enough? Anyways when i read this post i understould you exactly. I really like your blog and Your Masters log too.
-Divine
-Divine
slave
· 1 year ago
Divine, After great reflection I believe _i_ test Masters rules because I want to know he will reinforce them; therefore telling me he loves me. Text book child like behaviour - but it works. It has taken quite some time for me to understand my choices and the motives behind them but now that I do understand them I am free - free from disliking myself and free to embrace the slave I am.
Thank you for reading my journal and my Masters. If you should ever have any questions or wish to comment again, please do so.
In warmth, ~His grace
jerusha
· 1 year ago
I hope you are feeling better from that nasty bug you caught :-)
I find myself testing everyone not just Master. It's something I've always done and Master does as well. He finds it annoying when I test people though. He is not used to having someone around that is an analyst and strategist. I must admit I want to find out who is weak and will give when I act aggressively. I'll tell you one thing, I do not respect people who just roll over when I get demanding. I find it challenging when people can go toe-to-toe with me either physically or mentally.
I guess my biggest challenge is accepting "no" as "no" instead of trying to negotiate or debate.
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-Divine
-Divine
After great reflection I believe _i_ test Masters rules because I want to know he will reinforce them; therefore telling me he loves me. Text book child like behaviour - but it works. It has taken quite some time for me to understand my choices and the motives behind them but now that I do understand them I am free - free from disliking myself and free to embrace the slave I am.
Thank you for reading my journal and my Masters. If you should ever have any questions or wish to comment again, please do so.
In warmth,
~His grace
I find myself testing everyone not just Master. It's something I've always done and Master does as well. He finds it annoying when I test people though. He is not used to having someone around that is an analyst and strategist. I must admit I want to find out who is weak and will give when I act aggressively. I'll tell you one thing, I do not respect people who just roll over when I get demanding. I find it challenging when people can go toe-to-toe with me either physically or mentally.
I guess my biggest challenge is accepting "no" as "no" instead of trying to negotiate or debate.
Kind regards,
jerusha